Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Hermanita Gatita

A dear sister i have and love.
Been through tough times
but have had great fun times.

How can i imagin life without her?

Its hard...
I've lost her once in the past.
It hurt me so much. What had happend was wrong..
But here you are, back in my life...
How? Why?
I do not know.
I believe God answered my prayers.
He sent you and lead you into my life.

Baby girl, i never want to lose you.
We've had our ups and downs...
but who doesn't?
You stuck by me, even when i don't want help..
you still stand by to give me advice and guide me...
but do i listen?
At that moment i read what you say...but i don't listen right away...
but...i later go back and think about what you said.
Your friendship, your love...means a lot to me.

I miss you everyday. I may not show it or sound like it...
but believe me mijita...i miss you every damn day!
Your my homegirl for life...mi hermanita.
Im gonna be there beside you no matter what.
No matter where i am...im always going to have you in my heart.
You are my life, forever and always will be mija :)

This may be the hardest thing to say or even show,
because i have been hurt many times...
but when it comes to you bebe i know i can say it...

I love you.

I do with all my heart and soul and i mean it.
Your my baby sister for life danii.
My sister for another mother hahaha.
I still love you as my own :)

Thank you Lord for sending me an angel.
I love you baby sister and never forget that.
God Bless and peace.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Missing & Finding you..

I feel alone..
Why do i feel happy one moment, then the next i feel so down, just so lonely...
Where are you?

I miss seeing you smile..
I miss having your company..
I miss hugging you..
I miss kissing your lips..
I miss knowning and seeing how different you are from others..
I miss watching and hearing you play the guitar..
I miss the happy feeling i had inside when you were around..
I miss the smell of your perfume...it drove me crazy everytime i could smell it.

That scent...the times i could smell it...
It would be stuck on my jumper or i could smell it on a friend...
But it's you who pops and stays in my head. Only you..
I can't stop thinking about you..

Is it bad?
Is it bad to miss you?
Is it wrong to think about you?
Is it all a crime..?
Missing you can't be a crime either..
I can't help what i feel inside..
It makes me feel happy and that there is hope.

We talked about how we felt...
We talked about where it was going..
I told you i'd wait...
Its been a while and i've been waiting...
But i haven't heard from you..
What has happened?
Have your feelings changed?
Are you pushing me away because your afraid?

I guess finding or falling for someone always ends up making you think and feel afraid...
But afraid of what exactly?
Afraid of getting hurt?
No matter what..
No matter how much you try to avoid getting hurt..
No matter what..
In the end you still do..

It takes time to find the right person..
It takes time to stay with them..
It takes time to move on..
Relationships take time..
But it tends to hurt you inside some way...
There's always going to be someone in mind...
Your always going to fall for someone you cannot have..
Or fall for someone you don't want to wait for...because you just want them to be yours..

It's life and we go through it all the time.
Everyone ends up finding someone..
I guess someday i will find the right person as people say i deserve...
I'll love and care for them just as they will...

Wherever she is...
Whoever she is...
I'll be waiting and i'll be ready for you..
As my heart is strong and full with love to be shared...

Lokiita Lissette is waiting for you.. <3

Monday, October 5, 2009

Restless Sleep...

She calls out for help…she cries out to anyone…
She can’t wake up…
She struggles in her dream…
She’s falling....


She wakes…
Not knowing what the loud bang was in her dream…
What is it that stops her from seeing it?

Every night...she closes her eyes…wondering…will I see what happens next?
Every night...she struggles...
She can’t keep still...
Her dream...she’s falling...


She wakes...
She begins to wonder and ask herself...
Why am I falling?
Did someone push me?
Did someone want me hurt?
Why do I continue having this dream?
What is the meaning of this?

She sits down and starts to think what this dream is trying to tell her….
What is this dream about?

Why am i falling?

A young girl...confused with everything..
Family, school, friends....
She doesn't know what to.

She's crying...running from her friend..
Her friend is calling to her to help her...but she doesn't listen..
She's falling..


She wakes up crying.
She's so messed up...she wants to sleep...
Why can't i sleep...why am i falling?

Next morning her mother tells her sad news...
Shes sick...she doesnt have how long to go.
She crys and crys asking God why?

She's crying...running from her friend..
Her friend is calling to her to help her...but she doesn't want to listen..
She's crys out.."why God, why?"

Her friend tells her to stop and to understand that its for the best.
She crys more and says...
"it should be me...i'd rather it be me...i don't what to be here...Goodbye dear friend.."

She jumps.


Suddenly she wakes..
Taking a deep breath and looking around her rooom.
"It was just a dream. Only a nightmare."
Someone was trying to tell her something...
And now she realizes how important it is to stay on earth no matter how bad a situation is.

Thank God im alive.

- Value your life, live your life...no matter what...never try to end your own life, as God will take you when the time is right -